hmmmmm

Why do we only think to write our feelings when we're hurt?
Are we too scared to share them? Are we ashamed of them so we put them here where only a few will see? Is it the pain that someone else would feel?
Maybe for you this isn't the case...or if it is...none of these reasons apply. I'm currently in a mediocre state of mind. I'm physically hurt although I'm not sure why. Hospital visit early in the morning. Maybe I'll get something to eat for my man before I go because after that I'm going to get my tattoo finished.
Don't go to the mall alone if you're barely seen when you're in a group. You realize just how invisible you are...and it WILL get to you.

One of my friends thought that I was going to be ditching her the other day. I've done it here and there and to those of you who I've done it to I apologize. It had never happened to me more than when I moved into this apartment.

I want to love my life. I'd just have to have security before doing that....
*sigh*

Screw it.

If you want to hate me then do it
Don't beat around the bush
Don't act too nice
Just hate me already

I wish I could just scream that out to a certain someone and I really wish that person would see this. I can't say it out loud. I'm not here to be treated like SHIT on the bottom of your shoes. I'm human, too. You've made your errors and I've made mine.
Fuck being friends forever. I'm done with pretending.

NOTHING LASTS FOREVER...DON'T EVEN TRY!

say something....

the silence is killing me
i don't believe in awkward
but there is no other word

i could apologize
but i wouldn't be sure what to say
the silence remains

petty conversation
less than ten minutes ago
the silence returned as quickly as it arrived

help me out here
Say Something.

Blogging

In most cases....I would delete everything that came before this here blog.
I, however, have decided that it's all me. I'm still that girl. Why not leave it? So I am...
A friend of mine is blogging now and it has inspired me to start again. So here's to an entirely different view of this girl, after life really hit her.

Spring Break is a Tease!

You never realize how incredible it would be to finally get out of high school and that's where senior-itis sets in. I did become much closer to Haley and found out that we really are each others besties. Haley+Rie=Besties FOREVER!
I was with her pretty much everyday, I even think I saw her more than I saw my own boyfriend.
Had some good times over break, had some great times...but even in the happiest week of my life there was some major downs. Everything is fine now though, just got some of the childish things to regret out of my system.
Brian and I are fabulous, and have decided that we will for sure be together forever.

Theatre

Photo from: thorinteagueanimation.net

Newly brought to my attention is my skill at being someone else. I'm almost too good at not being myself. I am great at manipulating my voice as well as various other parts, such as my hair, to become that other person. I work hard at what I do to become another woman entirely...someone that I never dreamed of being. I would love to do something such as this for a living but it is hard telling how hard such a thing could be. This is a passion of mine that would take a ton of work that I'm willing to give.

This = Life

Photo from: Grapevine DJ

Above all other things in my life there is just one constant that is always deep within my soul pushing it's way through the crowded spaces inside of me. This thing is music. Silence hardly exists, find it and you may have experienced the greatest music of your life, the music in you. Music helps bring us up and maybe it will bring you down. It is a realization of what will happen or it could be a sign as to what you should do. Listen to the music in a forest...or in a field on a breezy summer day.